I have a prayer request. I'm struggling with irrational fear for this baby I'm carrying, though I can usually push it aside so long as I'm pushing back on the sharp little elbows and heels that keep digging into my sides. I didn't feel the baby move for almost two hours this morning, which is unusual (that's typically a pretty active time for the wee), and I found my heart gripped with fear and anxiety that something had happened, and the baby had died.
The root fear
I struggle with is that all of my pregnancies will end with death.
fearful for Rob's or Blake's lives, but I am scared for this baby in a
way that is a stronghold for me. I need to speak the fear to take away
its power (I don't believe in jinxes, but it feels very very wrong to
state that root fear), I need to tell others so they can be praying for
me, and I need to be more intentional about praying God's Word over my
heart and child.
Would you please join me with that? I don't want to give Satan a foothold, and I don't want to
be paralyzed every time a certain small person decides to take a nap at
an unusual time of day for them. This morning was really frightening,
but thankfully, worship practice seemed to wake the little biscuit up
and set my mind back at ease. I've been pushing back on sharp little elbows and heels the rest of today. Even when that's uncomfortable, it's incredibly reassuring.